Chains - "I hate when that happens
My family tells me that I don't see myself as others do. Others describe me in ways that are flattering and nice. I often think 'are they really talking about me' My chains come mostly from childhood. They are ingrained in my sisters and I. We are all very intelligent strong women and we have all worked very hard to shake those chains. Yes, they rear there ugly face when you least expect it.
My daughter has been my biggest "cheerleader" She takes no prisoners but you will always hear the truth from her and when people lie to us to make us feel better that is not truly helping. She will say to me "you can do this" "you got this" and she is profoundly proud of my accomplishments. She tells me "don't ever let anyone tell you that you can do something, ever" She is my hero and my inspiration.
I think all humans have their "demons" (though I HATE that word) to varying degrees. Mine seems to be fear, fear or failing, fear of "bad things" happening to me.
I have found lately, a stronger woman appearing and getting closer to the surface to show people she is strong, creative, intelligent, kind, and yes, sometimes very sad. My daughter told me not too long ago. "I like the person you are becoming" It is that statement that helps me to have to confidence to pursue things in my life like she has (but never on her level-she is amazing).
Though I obsess about my weight, I have decided to put that aside as I am losing, doing Diamond Dallas Page Yoga which has been amazing for my mind and body. It is time to let go of lack of confidence, doubt, fear and step out into the great wild world and.......
WRITE MY OWN STORY
